Sicker than Sick, but SHOWup

Jan 4

Sicker than sick today……But keeping hold of my hope, dream and faith. Wow. I can’t get warm. I can’t sleep. I don’t feel normal. Ughghg. I’m literally showing up for this blog but if it reads a little crazy yal know why. LOL.

However, I am proud of myself because I have been eating plant based for 4 days now. That in itself is a miracle. I’m surprised that I am even able to keep it going while being sick. I lay here and I am so uncomfortable but all I can think about is what I’m not getting done in my life as the days drift by. 

“Don’t stress Steph, don’t stress” I keep saying to myself. This is happening for a reason. Just don’t know what that is.  

Starting to actually feel depression now. I feel so alone and its been years since divorce but this sucks to be alone and be sick. I have noone to go get me some water and downstairs might as well be in Africa. My big sippy cut is empty. 

Ok, I did my duty for today…I showed up…. body aches and all. That is what counts. Depression and all. But, this chick has to go lay down. But I promise the blogs will get better. They have to I have a year of these right?

Gotta love a sense of humor. 

Later!